I’ve finally decided to surrender to what is… that is, the current state of my personal finances. I know that my story isn’t unique, that millions of Americans are experiencing the pressures of not being able to pay their mortgages, debts and daily living expenses. But, after spending the last five months mentally and emotionally struggling with my beliefs about what I’ve been conditioned to think I ’should’ be doing to get my income back to where it was just last summer, I reached my bottom. I didn’t have an anxiety attack or a nervous breakdown, but I sure wasn’t very fun to be around… even for myself! In fact, I was starting to really dislike who I was becoming. I wasn’t living in a state of being that was in alignment with my values. I realized also that this isn’t just about me. My experience is indicative of the collective experience, and that even if I were to change my thoughts and beliefs and use the Law of Attraction to change my situation (all of which I believe in and are a part of my work as a coach who uses energy psychology), the Universe has a different plan. Maybe this is about letting everything fall apart, no matter how scary that is for me. Maybe it’s time to consider that there may be a different paradigm for getting out of my financial crisis, that doesn’t include running around in a state of disarray and panic trying desperately to get a job that will provide for me. Maybe it’s time for me to let go of ideas and expectations that were born out of old dreams that no longer fulfill my deepest desires for how I want to live my life and be in service to the evolution of this planet. So I’ve made the choice to release myself from all of the shame, blame and guilt around my finances… and have decided to consciously live in a state of gratitude because I have a precious gift, that money could never buy: my health and the health of my family.
In upcoming posts I’ll talk about dealing with anxiety, fear and depression as we all are affected by these economic times. You may also like to visit my website: www.innerstatecoaching.com for information about classes, workshops and private coaching sessions.
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